"Letting Go"

Today I started "letting go"...just like Gail Blanke, the AOL Body personal coach told me to do at the Blogher Conference luncheon...I'm "letting go" of the stuff that is holding me back.

I'm letting go of the bad stuff...(I'm only going to think about the good stuff...like the fact that my husband is able to start eating again...yes that's the good stuff...after two months he took his first swallow of real food yesterday...and I brought him good stuff to eat...banana ices that are his favorite...he cannot eat too much...but that's okay...in time he'll be able to have more good stuff...more good food...I may have to learn how to cook the good food again...not that I really cook anymore...but I will try...maybe I'll try to make a low-fat, low-sugar banana cream pie for him to enjoy...that's good stuff.)

I'm letting go of the anger...(Who is angry...not me...I'm turning 50...I have wrinkles...I'm having a hot flash right now...but I'm not angry...I can't sleep...I have no time to read anymore...I'm so busy...but I'm not angry...nope...I'm letting go...nothing is going to make me angry anymore...life is too short to be angry.)

I'm letting go of the fear of failing...(I'm going to try new things when I'm 50...if I fail...so I fail...did I just say that...can Judi with an "i" fail...can I let myself fail...yes...I'm going to try new things just to try them...I'm going to try some of those things that I've always wanted to try and maybe I'll make mistakes...no more A plus, pluses for me...I'm ready for those C grades.

I'm letting go of the beliefs about myself that may not be true...(I'm going to be positive about my strengths...I am woman hear me roar...I think I'm going to permanently change the spelling of my name when I turn 50...Judi with an "i"...with new beliefs about myself...according to a recent article in the New York Times.the lowercase "i" is very trendy..taking after the "iPod" and the "iPhone" ...I need an "i" in my name when I turn 50...I like the way Judi looks on the page (okay my real name is Judy with a "y"...I've just been using Judi with an "i" as my pen name...but it has changed my life...and I like it.)

Gail told each of us to go home and start "letting go" by throwing out 50 things...any 50 things...so now that I'm turning 50...throwing out 50 things should be easy...I likely have 100 things I could throw out...but I'll start with 50...yes...I'll start with the two junk drawers in my kitchen that are cluttered with so much junk...I bet I have 50 things in each drawer I could throw out...then I'll head to the basement and throw out another 50 things...and then I'll go up in the attic and throw out 50 things...and finally in my bedroom closet...I don't have 50 pairs of shoes I could throw out...but I bet I have quite a few that I don't wear anymore...they might come back in style...but I'm going to throw them out anyway.

I'm excited about "letting go"...feels liberating...can't wait until the garbage men get to my house this week...they better have strong arms...those garbage cans are going to filled to the brim!

Judi